I have posted 100 times in this blog, "62 Years on the Road." This will be 101 and coincidentally, this month I turn 63!
I will probably need a new title to work with. Something like "63 to 64," or "Beyond 62," or maybe simply " 63 in 2010." I'll work on it.
Cold weather is getting me down. I never liked the cold when I lived up north and I still don't do well with it. It makes me crabby and tense and I find it hard to get any real work done.
So with that said, let me say this.
One nice thing about this blog is that I can be crabby, write about some stupid complaint and wine about whatever I want, feel like I told the world, then highlight and delete! It is like ranting and raving without the consequence of retribution. I can say *(^#*/!... and ain't he */(^#! and aren't they______ and just #Gr!*8;?ETC.......DELETE! What fun!!! So there, I feel better.
Marcus Aurelius said "If you are distressed by anything, the pain is not due to the thing itself, but to your estimate of it and this you have the power to revoke at any minute." And he didn't even have a "delete" button.
Attitude is everything!
So I hate to think about yesterday when I let pesky people bother me. For a little while I got caught up in local politics, I took a stand and felt intimidated to back down, and I did, a little, and I hate to say it, but I also gossiped, just a bit, and I am mad at myself for doing it, although it wasn't really hurtful gossip, but still. Sometimes behaving human frustrates me. I would rather think I am above petty annoyances and confident of myself, and not care what people think of me, but sometimes I'm not, I'm not, and I do.
Today, my little world is better simply because I think it's better. Cool huh? To whatever extent we can, we get to choose an illusion that appeals to our current temperament, then live it and be happy. So here I am living comfortably in my funky eclectic office gallery studio close to the glorious Gulf, with plans to meet friends for breakfast and dinner and get a haircut in between. I am writing in this blog feeling quite cozy while sitting in bed this morning with a hot cup of coffee beside me and frankly, in spite of a bad economy, in spite of a faulty weather system, in spite of pesky people, and in spite of...... well there is no other "in spite of," I am pretty happy with "things." I wouldn't mind a few million in the bank, but hey, life is good just the same. And it is getting even better as I write!!!
Choose warm happy thoughts! Remember you are loved.
So far, I haven't found a tenant so that I can move and reduce chance of the close encounters. That was another resolution, to move. The sign is up, the place is listed. Patience.
I met another cool person yesterday. She's quite an accomplished artist, earning money as a nurse, getting married on the beach in two weeks and so interesting to talk to. Very creative, she has a website, and great ideas and enthusiam. We're having lunch Thursday.
I seem to meet terrific people everywhere I turn.
About Me
- Jan ockunzzi
- Indian Rocks Beach, Florida, United States
- I am 62 years old, a grandmother, who had never really been on her own until a year and a half ago when the divorce became final. Last summer, at the end of April , I took to the road, by myself, for a three month sabbatical from my conventional life, wondering around the USA, watching the sun rise and fall from behind my steering wheel and contemplating life's mysteries and looking for chance encounters with cool people and experiences. My very first post, written back in January of 09, explains the whole thrilling scary plan. The story of my journey down a real as well as metaphorical road follows. And it hasn't really ended. To know me, you would need to start at the first blog and read forward from there. But you could skip around a bit. Back home, off the road, it got bumpier!